How I feel#5

Just talked to my friend how awesome being the only daughter of my parents. Yes, sometimes when they give what you demand is amazing. I am the only daughter and also the eldest of the family. So, I earned the nickname, Da Xiao Jie since small. Especially all my relatives all said that, very fun right, no one gonna fight with you. NO, it's not fun at all! Don't ever think that being the only princess of the family is NICE! My parents put high expectation on me. My  dad wants me to take professional degree which I am not gonna do. My mum never praise me for getting straight A's in the past examinations. Whenever I finished sitting for one subject in the exam, one of my parents would call me to ask how was the examination. I didn't wanna disappoint them so most probably I would answer "Oh, it's quite okay" with confident tone although it was quite tough for me. Sometimes I showed my confidence in front of others just to hide the nervousness inside. Since coming to asasi, I am tired of being confidence. Yeah, sometimes I was truly confident but it seldom happened. I am gonna be a degree student in the coming Sept, I hope my dad will not be disappointed because I am not going to do what he wants. Erm the burden on my shoulders is too heavy but I could not just throw it away coz I wanna be a role model for my lil bro. 
So being the best is always the mission of mine but now I am just scared that I am not able to proceed it.